When I was nine years old, I had the most startling spiritual experience of my life. I remember it very clearly: I had just gone to bed and was about to fall asleep, when something in the corner of the room caught my attention. When I looked, I saw this huge angel. It was like a beautiful man with immense wings, and he was sparkly and light. The angel was crying, and I got the impression it was because he had to leave me. I ran to get my parents to see the angel, but when we got back, there was nothing there. This experience has always made me wonder if children have extra guardian angels that have to leave us as we grow up. It was also really startling to think an angel would be sad and cry over a parting like this. Do you think angels experience human emotions?
– Rebecca
Astrea:
When I was little, I can remember my two Guardians going on walkabout. (That’s how it felt at the time, though that’s not how I expressed or thought of it then). I was in third grade, so I would have been about the same age you were when you had your vision. It took until I was in college to reconnect with those two.
At the time I wasn’t upset because I’d been in constant communication with them, and they’d told me time and time again that they would be leaving shortly but would never be far away from me. I knew they wouldn’t go away from me forever.
I was sad, but they seemed very matter-of-fact that this is just part of the deal, so I accepted it as a natural part of what happens in life.
This experience comes back to me every time someone asks a question similar to yours. Do Angels have human emotions? I don’t believe they do, but they can act as if they have emotions to show or teach us something.
Try to remember the circumstances surrounding your Guardian at the time. Was there something going on in your family that you needed to know or notice that you hadn’t seen yet because you were too busy being a kid? That would explain the tears.
Someone appearing as a man (or any adult) shedding tears would make a big impression on a kid. This was most likely something he was doing in order to focus your attention on a matter you had ignored. Was there something you were missing? Even when we’re children, our Angels have great expectations of us, and will try to show us the way.
The reason you didn’t see him with your parents or again later on was because you naturally tried to show him to someone else, and he couldn’t risk being seen by others.
The Angels assigned to us as babies never really leave us, but they do have a way of disappearing until we’re ready and able to see them again, or otherwise tap into the guidance and advice they have for us.
I’m sure he has been near you all your life. I’m sure you’ve been guided by him many times when you haven’t known it was happening at all. You’ve FELT his presence; you just haven’t been able to manifest him in visible form since you were nine.
If you would like to do this, you must find a process that works for you. Often our Angels are happy to appear for us – all we have to do is ask. One of the easier ways to begin is by asking him to come to you in dreams. Once the two of you get that going, you can figure out where to go from there.
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Susyn:
Yes, I believe angels, spirit guides, and even whatever primary spiritual source we depend on (whether we call it God, the Universe or our Higher Power) all share a sense of empathy and understanding for human emotions.
It seems to make no difference whether they have spent time on the earth plane or not. It’s my understanding that we are limited to one guardian angel, but are blessed with many other angels, spirit guides and benevolent entities who protect, guide and encourage us at various times in our lives.
At times we experience a connection with an angel or spirit guide who is actually a loved one who has crossed over from the earth plane as well. This may be why it appears that there are specific timeframes dictating how long they can be with us, what their purpose is, and when and if we are blessed to be able to see them, even if just for a moment.
Because there is no limit to how many angels or spiritual guides we may have, there are no doubt some who come and go depending on our needs. Your memory of this amazing angel can serve as a concrete reminder that you always have special protectors looking over your shoulder.
I believe that the feelings we experience are more than just simple human emotions: these emotions are the energetic bonds that connect us spiritually together, making the earth and spirit plane one. When we allow our emotions to flow openly and properly, whether they are pleasant or painful, that’s when we experience the most profound connection to God, our own true selves, and the world around us.
When you consider the overwhelming power of love, for example, you know from experience that it can transform you and shake you to your core. Many describe it as the most incredible experience of their lives. To me, that kind of emotion is just a sampling of what we can feel on the spiritual plane, which means our guardian angels and spirit guides may experience emotions even more profoundly than we do!
Life seems to contain many good-byes from our loved ones both here in the physical and in Spirit. However, once some leave us, new ones come into our lives, so when some angels and spirit guides move on, we get new ones. This is much like getting a different teacher each year as we advance in our education.
What a gift to have this profound memory of this special guardian angel who still visits from time to time, like a favorite relative who just likes to check in with you. I have no doubt you’ll see him again soon, when the time is right for you.
Astrea:
Many times in life we hear, “You will always have what you NEED, but not necessarily what you WANT.” Your spirit must have needed to experience the feeling of leaving your human body, and the suggestion in the next chapter of Sylvia Brown’s book was all it took to get you there.
Even though you hadn’t read it yet, your SOUL recognized the title of that chapter as something it had been seeking, and your soul, knowing that you had that reference to read after your experience, got with it and out you went!
While I don’t usually recommend her books, Sylvia Brown has a wide reaching and powerful effect on lots of people. A Gemini like you would be able to relate easily to her writing and put it to good use. Synchronicity – you gotta love it!
I like your description of “getting caught.” That’s exactly what it feels like, isn’t it? One minute you’re free and hovering above the room, and the next minute, ZAP! back down into your corporeal form you go!
As a little kid, I loved that “feeling of return.” With practice, most of the time we can control that event, but sometimes, when our physical ears hear a distracting noise or something else occurs to knock us back into reality, back we go. With practice you will be able to control your return better.
I find it interesting that you were visiting your mother-in-law and not someone in your own genetic family. Evidently, you and your husband got married for reasons that are even deeper than love. His family’s interest in “psychic stuff” will nurture your children in such matters and help them to grow into their own abilities.
You’ll never have to be concerned that when your daughter visits them, she’ll be discouraged from exploring her own psychic life and power. My parents encouraged me to develop my psychic senses in a time when it wasn’t nice to even discuss such things in public. Heck, it’s STILL not considered a great topic at the dinner table in some families!
Your kids will get to talk about it ALL and ask questions and read and study. This is going to give them such an edge in life! Talk with your husband about how you want to present this to your kiddos, so that you are united in your approach and ready to tell them their experiences are all natural and okay.
A word or two of warning: Geminis often have difficulty staying grounded in REAL LIFE. Don’t get so strung out on your ASTRAL life that you neglect what you’re doing here on Earth.
You are at the beginning of a long journey to learn where your power really lies. Try to be patient with this process and take your time.